Monday, June 09, 2008

Feeling Sort of Blah....

I have so many thoughts going through my head today, but none of them are really coherent. However, I think I will feel better if I write them down…I just feel so heavy right now.

As I’ve said often here, I feel so blessed to have everything that I have. I don’t deserve any of it. I have a husband that is the best thing in the world, kids that make me smile more than cry :), a job where I’m needed, and a wonderful family that is always ready to help out when needed. I know that at any moment these things can be taken away from me…I pray they aren’t, but I know it’s a possibility.

Saturday I was getting my hair done and while I was processing, the other client was telling my sister-in-law that she was looking for a place to live with her boys because she was getting a divorce. The whole time she just looked so sad. How lucky am I to have a great husband and to not have to worry about whether we'll be together next year? Or in five years? Or ten? I wish everyone had what I have.


Just a few minutes ago we laid off an employee. Now with us being a homebuilder, this is not an isolated occurrence. But it was the first lay-off in the accounting department. That’s hard. Accounting (along with HR, IS, etc.) is a very demanding field, and usually not affected by the performance of a company because these things still need to get done whether you’re making money or not. But with the selling of less homes, there is less accounting, and therefore his position needed to go. He was a nice guy and of course he was paid severance (our company really hates laying people off), but it still sucks.


I absolutely love warm weather. These 90 degree days we’re having? I love them. I love being able to eat dinner outside at 8:00 and not being cold. So the thought of having a relaxing summer and enjoying this great weather warms my heart. Except that we’re so busy, and I hate that. So far we have something going on every weekend in June, and I hate that. I can’t even find time to schedule my son’s birthday “party” – how wrong is that? I really hope we’re able to keep the rest of the summer free and enjoy our weekends.


Gas prices suck. It has really hit us lately how high the prices have gotten ($4 per gallon?!?!), and when you have two cars filling up every week, it really takes a toll on you. Thankfully we’re OK…my heart goes out to the people that can’t handle it. I see families on the news and I want to cry that they can’t afford very much food for their kids because of the gas prices and the increased prices on groceries.

I think that’s it for now. I do feel a little better. Thank you for letting me vent. I think lunchtime out in the 93 degree sunshine will perk me up even more :)


Anonymous said...

I could handle the 90 degree weather if the humidity wasn't so horrible.

Gas prices here are between $4.11 and $4.20. It's AWFUL. I don't care what anyone says, we're ALL feeling the pain at the pump. Some may not notice it NOW, but eventually, they will.

I don't like when you say you don't deserve all you have. Why don't you? Of COURSE you do!! It makes my heart happy to know someone out there is content in every way.


Rachel said...

I am glad that you are happy and that you are thankful for what you have.

Gas prices are killing us. I am tired of waiting on our government to do something about it. We spending almost as much on gas each month as we are for childcare!

Sherry said...

Now that is such a warming heartfelt venting blog I have ever read.
It's genuine and your concerns well founded.
Gas prices yes, it's sad people have to choose, food or gas, in our country of all places, that just breaks my heart too. I also feel fortunate we can at least do both.
You know how fortunate you are, it shows in your blogs, your family life and your job. Your compassion for others is the reason I so look forward to reading your posts daily.

Kelly M said...

I want to second what Kellie said. You TOTALLY deserve everything you have!!! You are awesome and your family bond..shines through in your writing! You have every right to be proud of what you have!

Gas prices?? Totally SUCK! I'm spending over $100 on gas a commute is KILLING me. But everything else...I will get through it. But totally agree with you on those that are not as fortunate. To think that some people actually have to choose between food and totally sad! And the fact the government is doing absolutely NOTHING to even sadder!

Christy said...

I hope you are feeling better now. We all have our days, no sham in that.

Give your husband and those kids a big hug and just enjoy those warm days. There is no point in stressing and wasting energy on what you can't difficult as that is at times. Oh, and can you send some of that sun our way?

Amy W said...

I love the weather too, although 101 at 6:00pm is kind of pushing it...

I know it's hard to witness someone being laid off...

Michele_3 said...

Great post, I think you and I are a lot alike sometimes!
I think the same way a lot..

It is definitely okay to be grateful and to be able to count your blessings as they come.Better to be thankful then not right?

I certainly am terrified of what this economy is turning into- Very scary- My heart breaks for people who truly are taking the burn of it all the hardest- Things have got to change soon I hope.
Take Care!