Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I'm Not Worried...

I’m 24 weeks pregnant as of yesterday, and for anyone that has been pregnant within the past 7 years at least (that was my first pregnancy), they know that it’s a milestone in that the baby, if born now for some reason, has a chance at life. So it feels really good to be at this point. It will feel even better to be at 30 weeks, and even better when I’m at the hospital delivering and done being pregnant. Can you tell I really don’t like this whole pregnancy thing???

By this point last pregnancy I know I had written at least (and I say that loosely because I’m sure it was more than once) about my fears of having another child. I worried about how I would handle it and how we were going to be outnumbered and so on and so on…

I can honestly say, for the most part, I am not worried about adding a fourth child to our family. We’ve been outnumbered, and now we’ll just be even more outnumbered :) The kids have really become so easy, and Kylie and Josh really do just about everything themselves, and Ryan is growing up so much each day, that adding a helpless newborn does not scare me like it did last time.

My one worry is that there is only so much of me to go around. Even last night I felt like I was being tugged by all three of them at once (they all wanted a different book to read/read to them at the same time) and for a second I felt panicked about how I would find more of me to give to a fourth child. But I know that God will help and of course I have a wonderful husband that has such an optimistic attitude about kids.

So while I’m not looking forward to getting up every two hours to feed a baby, or recovering from having a baby, or for winter in general, I am ready to be done being pregnant, and for maternity leave, and to find out whether this little bumble is a girl or a boy :)

4 comments:

Sherry said...

Glad you aren't worried, as there is no need to be. Just look at your three right not. They feel the love and security you and hubby have given them. They know their home is safe and know they have two parents that love them. Well balanced and happy kiddies!! this new child is going to feel the same thing as your family is awesome!!

Kellie said...

SO calm. I love it and would sell my spleen for a fraction of that calmness. I have TWO and am frustrated and sad and ugh....not cool.

:)

squishytushy said...

Clearly I've been out of the reading loop!!! MAZEL TOV on the new coming addition!!!!!!!!!!

Christy said...

I'm so glad you have such a wonderful sense of peace...what a blessing! That is kind of how I feel thinking about if we were to have another.